Every track, every name, every page.
An advanced index of everything this site holds: 86 playable tracks (with lyrics-text search), 70 documented-but-not-yet-recovered songs, 10 albums, 14 people, 39 of Vanessa's named musical influences, and 19 editorial pages and section anchors. Type anything in the box below to filter the index live. Empty box shows everything.
Playable tracks
Every recovered MP3. Click a row to play it (queues the rest of the visible list); the open icon opens the dedicated track page.
Lost & documented songs
Songs whose audio has not yet surfaced. Some have preserved lyrics or memories — click those to read what we have.
- 1hardcore
Work-in-progress demo posted May 2005, her own words: "It's my first attempt at actual hardcore, so yeah. Bare with me here." Working filename only; never released.
- 4duneish1
Working filename of the demo that became "That's the Way It Goes" on Indifference (Jan 2005). Posted to blisscoforum November 10, 2004 as an untitled Dune-inspired track; she revealed the title two days later.
- 5fasttrance
Work-in-progress demo posted January 2005 ("Tada!"). Working filename only; never released.
- A Day to Remember
- A Race Through Time
- Air
- And I
- Another Night
- As I Watch the Sun Rise
- As the Sun Rises
- Behind the Mask
- Behind the Mask (165 BPM Remix)
- Bliss (Intro)
- Brand New Day (Intro)
- Bring You Down
- By the Words (Lwqual)
Low-quality variant listed in blisscoforum discography
- Deep Blue Sky
- Dish Song
- Doesn't Matter
Fast BPM remix
- Even Though
- Fade Away (VTM's Basement Mix)
- Feelings
- Fight for Life
dem2, dem3, dem8 - Called one of her 'Techcore' demos in July 2004
- Fly Away
remix
- Follow Me
- Guten Tag (Intro)
- Hands of Time (Odd World Remix)
Distinct remix variant; not the American Idol version
- Happiness Theory
intro
- I'm Flying
- If You Believe
VTM & John collab
- In My Dreams
dem1, dem2
- Keep On
dem1, dem2
- Like a Dream
- Locked
- Lullaby (Dream)
- My Dear Friend
- My Longing for You
- Need You Now
- newertrance1
Work-in-progress demo posted June 26, 2005, her own words: "Probably won't work, but here's a new demo anyway.." Working filename only; never released.
- On My Way
- One More Time
- Pathway to the Stars
- Popsicle Song
- Race to the Future (Remix Demo)
Demo of the remix variant
- Second Chance
- Serene Dream
- Serene Dream (VTM Sleep Mix)
- Silence
- So Alone (Demo)
- softtrance
Work-in-progress demo posted June 25, 2005, her own words: "Here's my newest demo..I'm very very very proud of this..." Working filename only; never released.
- Speed of Light
dem1
- Take It Slow
- Take My Life
- That's the Way It Goes (VTM Spin Around Remix)
- The Day
- The Depth of the Mind
- The Way (String Mix)
- The Way (VTM Basement Mix)
Distinct from "Fade Away (VTM's Basement Mix)" on Vantastic; same mix naming, different song
- There's a Light
Written for a March 2004 Christian songwriting competition; one of two entries Vanessa was preparing
- These Are the Times
- This Message
- Time Stands Still
- Tomorrow
- Tranquility of the Soul
- Underwater World (Dem4)
Fourth demo variant; base track has been recovered
- Violent Night
Holiday parody co-written with her sister Amanda, set to the tune of "Silent Night" (Nov 21, 2004). Marked "to be continued"; likely never recorded as audio.
- Walk With Me
- Ways Away
- When the Rain Falls (Remix Demo)
Demo of the remix variant
- When the Rain Falls (Remix)
Listed in blisscoforum discography; base track recovered
Albums
Click a row to queue the whole album; the open icon goes to the album page.
People
Family, friends, collaborators, and the people who have returned music to the archive.
- Amanda Fournier
Vanessa's sister (née Marcussen). Co-wrote a set of lyrics with her, Violent Night, in November 2004, set to the tune of Silent Night.
- Amanda Miller
Friend of Vanessa's who kept a hard drive of her music for nearly twenty years. The single largest contributor of recovered audio: she returned 25 unique tracks in one batch in March 2026, plus Time Goes By in January.
- Eric D.
A friend who has shared memories and context with the archive.
- John Alan Fessel
Lyricist and close musical collaborator from Brooklyn, NY. Wrote lyrics for several of Vanessa's later songs, including If You Believe and Just Because. Contributed nine recovered tracks and lyric transcriptions to the archive.
- Nathan Meier
Vanessa's husband and the father of their daughter Scarlett.
- Rachel Marcussen
Vanessa's older sister. Designed the cover art for the Vision album in April 2007, and is credited on the 2008 film Pilgrim's Progress.
- René
A friend of Vanessa's who has shared memories, context, and naming. He's the one who provided the title Vantastic for her earliest surviving album.
- Retha Marcussen
Vanessa's mother.
- Scarlett Meier
Vanessa and Nathan's daughter.
- Sherri Eleazer
A friend who has shared memories and context with the archive.
- Steve Marcussen
Vanessa's father. In her February 2004 interview she mentioned that he helped her set up her studio equipment.
- Suzanne v.d.B.
A friend of Vanessa's from the Bliss Corporation forum era who has shared memories and context with the archive.
- Todd Hertzelle
Maintains this archive. Met Vanessa on the Eiffel 65 / Bliss Corporation forum as a teenager in the early 2000s. Transcribes lyrics by ear and is responsible for almost every recovery before March 2026.
- Vanessa Rose Marcussen Meier
Electronic music composer from Virginia. Began composing at seven, adopted the name VTM at eleven, and by July 2004 had finished 695 songs and was working on her thirty-second album. She produced happy hardcore, trance, and electronic music. The subject of this entire archive.
Musical influences
Musicians Vanessa named as inspirations across forum posts from 2003 to 2006. Click any one to jump to the influences section on her life page.
- 4 Strings
- Aphex Twin
- Aquagen
- Autechre
- Ayumi Hamasaki
- Blaze!
- Blümchen "my genre is VERY similar to hers"
- BT "one of THE best musician-producers in Europe"
- Cassius
- Cat69
- Charlie Lownoise & Mental Theo
- Cherry Poppin' Daddies
- Coldplay
- Daniel Bedingfield
- Darude
- Dj Raw early production-era inspiration (Nov 2003)
- DJs @ Work
- Dune her stated favorite; "I Can't Stop Raving (Video Mix)" was her #1 song
- E Nomine
- Eiffel 65 the band whose fan forum she grew up posting on
- Fischerspooner
- Gabry Ponte
- Gigi D'Agostino
- Jasmin Wagner
- Kraftwerk
- Lasgo
- Lustral
- Mark 'Oh
- Marusha
- Matt Darey
- Mauro Picotto
- Orbital "Halcyon"
- Planet Funk
- Scooter
- Scott Brown
- Special D
- Sunbeam
- U96
- William Orbit
Pages & sections
A flat site map: every editorial page, plus deep links to specific sections you might be looking for.
- Home
Start here. Recent recoveries and an overview of the archive.
/ - The full collection
All 86 recovered tracks in one filterable list.
/listen/ - Albums
8 of her albums have at least one recovered track.
/albums/ - Singles
Songs that never landed on an album, told as a magazine feature.
/singles/ - Her life
Biography, timeline, interviews, and musical influences.
/life/ - Musical influences
The artists VTM listened to and named as inspirations.
/life/#influences - Interviews
February and July 2004 interview transcripts.
/life/#interviews - About this archive
How the archive came together, who maintains it, and why.
/life/#archive - People are listening
Live play counts showing how the catalog is being heard today.
/life/#reach - Contribute
How to share audio, memories, or corrections with the archive.
/contribute/ - Share a memory
What kinds of memory or note help the archive most.
/contribute/#memories - Rights and removal requests
For rights holders, family, or estate representatives.
/contribute/#rights - Still searching
70 documented songs whose audio has not surfaced.
/lost/ - The Bliss Corporation Forum
The Italian dance-music community around Eiffel 65 where VTM posted her early tracks.
/scene/bliss-corporation-forum/ - Happy hardcore in the bedroom-producer era
The genre she worked in, the artists she listened to, where she fit.
/scene/happy-hardcore/ - Lost on MySpace, found on hard drives
How nearly seven hundred songs were almost erased, and how some came back.
/story/lost-and-found/ - Changelog
Every update to the archive, in order.
/changelog/ - Stream desktop
A fake 2006 Windows XP desktop for streaming overlays (1280×720).
/stream/ - Download the collection
Every recovered track as a single ZIP.
/VTM-Music-Collection.zip
No matches for that search across any section. Try a shorter phrase, or check the spelling. The archive indexes about 238 entries.